My Own Fears
How do does a Saint deal with her Fears?
Come have a seat in my heart today as I interpret my own dark dreams⛈️
There are 4 steps:
👹 Being clear about my Fear
🧟♀️ Facing the Worst Case Scenario
❤️ Discovering what I Value
🫡 Finding and taking the next steps
My fear: I’m afraid Love isn’t being centered by our revolution. I’m afraid that only one part of the Cycle of Life is being honored (the end, destruction), and endings are being brutally forced, rather than let die naturally, as all things do.
Whether this is “true” or rational on a factual basis or otherwise is not important. What’s important is my Fear is giving me important guidance for my next steps.
Worst case scenario: Prioritizing the expression of hatred over other concurrent emotions escalates as we burn ourselves out as individuals and communities. Pain and violence are inflicted in our own hearts as hatred brews, and much of the material plane (our earth, its creatures and inhabitants) suffer great damage and loss. Basically, World War Three.
I look at Worst Case Scenarios head on because these Nightmares illuminate what I value, love and cherish.
What I Value: Practicing inhabiting in a 🌈rainbow of emotions,🌈 rather than just a few loud ones. Non violence on psychic, emotional and physical planes. Trusting the Process of Endings is inevitable, and if I pay attention, breathes in every moment of every day. If rushing towards an end becomes inevitable, may it be with compassion and deference to the wiser ways of Nature.
Knowing what I value is important because my orientation towards protecting what I value informs my actions. I understand that most people out there, even the ones who confuse me, are also probably living according to this same system: protecting what they value.
Next Steps: Taking the time to write this email to share how I feel about Love and the Life Cycle.
Not all Fears are so all-encompassing. Others are more microcosmic: I’m afraid my cat is unwell. She could die! I value the well being and comfort of my cat. I’m getting her new medicine to ease her inevitable descent to old age and eventual death.
Yes, mining this oracular state takes practice and skill.
Discernment: I can’t be so wrapped up in the physical sensations of fear, lost in an intellectual debate about whether I should/shouldn’t be having this Fear at all, or so absorbed in the fantasy of the Worst Case Scenarios, that I treat Fears and Worst Case Scenarios as immutable.
Honesty: If I’m not truly honest about the fears or how big/scary they are, the Values and Actions won’t be potent enough to match the Fear.
Patience and Trust: Taking the steps and seeing the outcome is how we build trust in the guidance our Fears. The next steps might not feel like a big enough “solution,” especially to big or global Fears. Small steps add up and it takes time to build a trustworthy relationship with fear. Most of us have been taught that fear is a weakness to be overcome, not the valuable source of guidance it is!